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Reliving Poison

Despite really feeling sleepy, I just had to stay up to watch the feature on Bret Michaels (Poison) on the Bio Channel. It made yearn for the good old days. Here is one of my favorite songs from the group. Lately I can tell that something ain't right I don't see the fire when I look in your eyes One time up, and the next time down This may be the last time that you see me around, said Well it sure seems to me nothing matters tonight And all those things we worked out, they got lost in the fight Its not enough, girl, that I gave you my soul I just want to know if we've got anything left at all, and I say Hold on now, baby. This could be the last time we stand This could be the last time that we say good-bye The picture shatters I can't find the words to save it Tell me what to do, how can I make it right We will always be fire and ice Well promises made in the heat of the night You could sure spit them out, girl, but they've long passed me by Nobody knows ab

Coolest Libraries in America

Now why am I writing about this? One, because my dream is to become a practicing librarian and help children discover a love for books. Two, because this day is not going well and I need something to make me feel better and books and libraries seem to do just that. Three, I don't want to let my emotions run wild and writing this long post will help me salvage a potentially disastrous day (or weekend perhaps). So, on to the coolest libraries in America. These libraries were featured on MSN and I found myself putting them on my list of places to visit before I die. There are actually 10 but I only picked those that tugged at my heaHere goes. Seattle Central Public Library, Seattle Glass + steel = graceful strength This building is beautiful in a modern kind of way. I can just imagine how high tech their system inside is. Boston Copley Public Library, Boston Photo courtesy of Celebrate Boston This building just wows me with its appearance. Dubbed as an example o

I Know You Won't

Who ever thought I'd be listening to country? Heard this song earlier today... I Know You Won't Carrie Underwood I know you don't mean to be mean to me 'Cause when you want to you can make me feel like we belong Lately you make me feel all I am is a back-up plan I say I'm done and then you smile at me and I forget Everything I said I buy into those eyes And into your lies You say you'll call, but I know you You say you're coming home, but I know you I wish you were where you're supposed to be Close to me But here I am just staring at this candle burning out And still no sound Of footsteps on my stairs Or your voice anywhere

Still "Bon Jovi-ing"

We had a short drinking session (with the girls) last night and it made me realize how much I miss spending time with friends. We started playing the most baduy songs on our playlists - it was really a blast. I wish I could do these things more often. Now it's back to the old grind...and Bon Jovi's still at it. I never wanted the stars I never shot for the moon I like them right where they are All I wanted was you So baby just turn away Because I can't face the truth All I'm trying to say Is all I wanted was you Ah the drama we have in life...

Trying to Keep the Faith (with Bon Jovi)

Call me sappy. Call me freaky. Call me jologs for all I care. I am once again finding solace in Bon Jovi's music. ...There are wars that can't be won... ...And its hard to hold on When theres no one to lean on... ...Faith: you know you're gonna live thru the rain Lord you got to keep the faith Faith: don't let your love turn to hate... As his husky voice and Ritchie's (spelling?) wailing guitar stream through my earphones, I feel a little bit like I felt when I was in high school - I can conquer the world, at least MY own world.

Much Too Young To Feel This Damn Old

Country music lovers would probably recognize that line from a popular song (which I had never heard of until Jerry introduced it to me). This is exactly how I have been feeling for the past few days and I don't understand why. I guess I really am getting old. We have not been getting much sleep for the past weeks and I have been feeling like shit. And even if I wake up at noon, I don't feel any better. Maybe it's because we've been going to bed early in the morning? I was just thinking the other night - after I turned 25, things started to really go downhill. It used to be that I could stay up for several nights without sleeping at all. It used to be that I could go out during the week and still be up in time for work without feeling any different. Now, I have to make sure that when I go out during the week, I have to go home around 1 or 2. Otherwise, I would be missing out on a day's work. Tsk, tsk, tsk. I don't want to be old and boring!!!

When You Hit Your Head Against The Wall... end up with a knot in your head. You cannot sleep and you feel even grumpier. I had to get up around 3 am to go to the wash room. I guess I miscalculated the distance when I tried to lie down and hit my head - hard - against the wall. Now I am dizzy and nauseous. This sucks. It is kinda funny, in a stupid kind of way, but not when the room is spinning as it is now.

Half-meant Jibes

"I don't mean those things I just say them because I know it gets to you." Then why say them at all? I have always thought that some jokes are half-meant. And it doesn't really matter if they are half-meant or not. If you know that it hurts the other person, then why keep saying things? I remember my taekwondo teacher in 6th grade telling me "If you don't have anything good to say, then don't open your mouth."

Wondering About the What Ifs

I know that doing this is not really productive. There is no point in going back in time (mentally, at least) and wondering what could have happened if only I did things differently. I can't help it, though. Sometimes, I just can't stop myself from wondering. What if I had summoned enough motivation to go back to ECE? Would I have been an engineer now? (And so what if I were one, by the way?) What if I had stuck to my direction/purpose in life back then? Would I have been more fulfilled spirituality? What if I had practiced my profession? Would I have been better off? Oh the what ifs of life. Sometimes I think that I should have been more cautious. I should have been more purpose driven. I should have known better. Then again, who is to say that my life would have been better if I had chosen different paths in the past? Time to forget about the what ifs and deal with the "what now?"

No Leaf Clover

Have you ever found yourself in a situation wherein you have this sinking feeling that it is headed nowhere? A business, a relationship, a job, or any other endeavor - it doesn't matter what kind of set up it is, you just somehow know that sooner or later it would all blow up in your face. Of course, being the "fighting" person that you are, you would do all that you can within your powers to try and get things straightened out. You would try to convince yourself that you could work things out. That's the idealistic person in you, the college person who thought he could change the world. Then there are times when it hits you. There are some things that you can change but there are some things that you can't. You can only control your actions, what others do, what others think, they are all beyond you. During these times, I bet you feel like that guy in Metallica's song No Leaf Clover. "Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your t

How Do You Know That You've Made the Right Choice?

Well, at least until it is too late to do anything about it. This is really one of the hardest things that I have learned about being all grown up. You are expected to make your own decisions and you are never really sure that you are making the right one. For what it's worth, you can believe with all your heart that you are doing the right thing. That is, until your decision bites you in the butt later down the road. Just thinking aloud...

Bed Weather

We're well into the rainy season and I just really now realized it. I set my alarm for 8 am but I could not make myself get up no matter how I tried. I looked out the window and it was (still is) overcast. There was (and still is) a light drizzle. Perfect weather for staying at home and sleeping in. How I wish I could do just that today!


We're out here in our balcony just talking, enjoying the night air, and the music. Landslide by the Dixie Chicks just came on and I am feeling wistful... "...children get older, I am getting older too...the landslide brought me down..." Certain events these past few days are making me realize once again that growing up is a continuous process. It is not all about age. It's the happenings in your life and how you deal with them. I used to think that I could solve every problem that came my way, my family's way. Now I am realizing that there are problems that you cannot solve, that there are problems that you just have to weather. There are times when you cannot always make things right the way you want them and when you want them. It is a hard realization. A large part of me doesn't want to acknowledge it, makes me want to fight back and gain control of everything. And yet some part of me knows that I can only do so much. As Steve Tyler sang "I

Music Is My Aeroplane

Music is something that I cannot live with. It picks me up when I am feeling down (or grumpy) like I am now. It keeps me company when I am miserable. It helps me focus on the task at hand. Of course, you need good speakers or headphones in order to fully appreciate what you are listening to. I am currently using Jerry's Sony headphones for his PSP and they are really good. But I don't really want to end up destroying them since I use them all the time. It's time to go shopping for headphones maybe? has some really good deals on the best brands. One thing that I have learned it's better to pay a little extra for a reliable brand than to save a little on off brands. Good thing with, the good brands can come cheap also.

Definitely NOT A Morning Person

Just a quickie before I start working. I set my alarm to wake me up at 8:00am. That's real early for me as I normally go to bed around 2:00am or 3:00am. I have not gotten up this early on a weekday for a long time now and I feel so grumpy. I don't even feel like getting coffee, which just finished brewing. What makes an individual a morning (or a night) person? I am definitely not one. Grrr... P.S. Maybe my mood is being exacerbated by the fact that my last dream of the night was that I was Barb in Big Love and Bill was somehow Jerry and the whole situation pissed me off so badly. You know how weird dreams can be! Thanks to Intangible Art for the photo!

Of Compromises

Compromise is a word that is very much used when you are in a relationship. I used to think that compromising would not be a problem if you really care for the person you are with. But what if you have different points of view as to what compromise really is? Merriam-Webster defines this word as: "something intermediate between or blending qualities of two different things." So it's either finding a happy medium between two ideas or combining two different ideas to come up with a new one that is acceptable to both parties, right? Still, I am not sure as to how you apply this in life exactly. When you compromise, does it mean that both parties are happy? Or does it mean that both are still unsatisfied but merely agree to come to an agreement? Or maybe, it is neither. How do you know when to compromise and when you have compromised enough? Arrgh, the complexities of life. Anyone care to shed some light on this matter?

Pop Quiz For Married People

The Internet is being funky and you need to call tech support. One spouse already calls while at work and then accidentally gets cut off. Husband and wife both get stressed dealing with tech support and neither really wants to call again. The Net has to be fixed somehow. Who should make the call?

Start Of The Week Slump

I've heard of the mid-week slump but what about the slump you feel on Mondays? Monday blues is the better term perhaps? I never really relished Mondays but yesterday was one of the worst I have had, in terms of my inner drive. I was at work. I accomplished a lot. My productivity was good. But somehow, I didn't feel good inside. I hate it when this happens because I love my work and I actually look forward to going to work most of the time. Maybe I am too worried about other things that are going on in my life. Then again, those should not affect my job. Leave your worries at home, that's my mantra. Oh well, I feel better today. Saw this picture on sfllaw'sFlickr. Thought it was cool.

Where Do Your Priorities Lie?

Knowing one's priorities is one of the most important things in life - at least in my mind. This implies that you have an overall goal in your life, which will help you set your priorities straight. Without this goal, you will end up floating around, the wind taking you where it blows. If you do not have your priorities straight, you will be turning this way and that, with no direction in life. Not everyone has this straight - certainly not me. But there are things that I know are important in my life: my husband, my family, my faith, and my job. Sometimes I think that I get my priorities all muddled up - especially when I got married. Sometimes I feel that I have to choose between priorities. Is there no way around this? Are there any absolutes when it comes to your priorities in life? Sometimes I think not. They could change according to the circumstances. But at the end of the day, you have to know who or what is most important to you. More than knowing and saying ,