For some reason, tonight, I decided to go back and read my old blog posts. I went back to 2009 and 2010, when I was going through the toughest time in my life. 2009 seemed bad, but there were good moments. Post after post, I found myself rediscovering something I didn't realize I had lost in 2011: the simple joys of life.
I got caught up in new and exciting things, yes. I was happy for the most part, yes! But what I didn't realize - until now - is that I was in the process of creating a new me. In spite of a broken marriage and an even more broken heart, I was going through life like I had never done before.
The tone of my writing, the words, the photos - all of them reflected a person who was living life the best she could. Somehow, along the way, I got sidetracked.
The good thing is that I have these realizations now, and they give me something that pushes me to get through this (once again) tough time in life. I may be in the rut. I may have different (or not-so-different) issues, but I do know that I can get past this. I do know that I can regain that balance that I had worked so hard for.
Life is not easy. It's not always laughter and fun, but at the end of the day, when you look back at the things you have gone through and see that you are better off for it, you know that everything will be alright.
I've shared this video before, but tonight's experience reinforces its message for me. It is so true that it is amazing, when the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright!
This, my friends, is why journaling is important. It gives you the perspective that you need to go through life, to get on with life.
Thank you, God, for gracing me with these realizations. I do not know what tomorrow brings, or how my emotions will go, but I do know that one day, I will look back at this and see it in a different light.