Three decades into my life, and I am beginning to think that life is a series of crossroads. Countless times, we find ourselves having to make decisions - some of them minor, some of them gigantic. Decision-making is a scary thing. In many cases, you hold a certain power over your future, and you don't want to make even the tiniest slip.
I think, however, that worse than having to make a decision is having to wait at the crossroads. I have always thought that when you find yourself in this position, you have to act immediately. I think that's the control freak in me.
These past months, I am learning something else about being at the crossroads: sometimes, you just have to sit still and wait. And for me, that can be much worse than having to make a decision.
Last weekend, I found myself at the crossroads in two different aspects of my life. I took different paths.
In one aspect, I went ahead and made my move. I am going to experience a major change in my life. It is scary and exciting. On the one hand, I don't have to worry about many things - dressing up for work (although we aren't required to wear anything like bow ties anyway) one of them. On the other hand, staying at home and being on my own is something I have to face.
On another note, there is something else I need to "fix" in my life. It is not entirely up to me, hence I can't really do much about it. I suppose I just have to wait and see what happens. Waiting is difficult for me, and I know that all I can do is trust that God will see this through.
Maybe soon, I'll get past this junction and really get on with my life.