Thursday, March 26, 2009

Heaviness

These past few weeks have been harrowing, to say the least. Today, it seemed as if I wouldn't be able to get past the day without breaking down. I had too much on my mind. I felt as if I just couldn't function normally anymore. In fact, I have been sleeping in every single day of the week.

I would think of all the stuff I have to accomplish at work: forms, grading, changes, meetings, dealing with people, etc. I would think of my responsibilities: family, my marriage, my bills, the truck, auto insurance, my debt....

I have been told that I think too much. I know that I have the tendency to take on more than I can actually handle, and that I usually end up living up to my responsibilities at my own expense.

All these having been weighing me down so much. Do I need to let go of some of these things to feel lighter?

6 comments:

  1. Abso-frickin-loutely!
    I would go outside and really look at the beautiful nature all around you...the details....
    take a deep breath, go for a walk, and I guarantee you...you will feel much, much better!
    Hang in there!

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  2. Trust me as I am an old broad and have been there, don't stress so much! It gives you gray hair and ulcers and is so not worth it. Things have a way of working themselves out if given enough time. You do what you need to do to take care of things then move on and don't stress. It won't help the situations and all it will do is make you miserable.

    Take care sweetie!

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  3. Letting go is so hard to do when your mind decides to dig its heels in. Have you seen my latest post?
    http://wickednesse.blogspot.com/2009/03/oc-minus-c.html
    It's on the same thing, but it's had the opposite effect. Haven't been able to sleep lately...

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  4. @Retired: this is the bad thing about living in the city...no nature to speak of. :(
    @Delaney: Thanks for wonderful tip. Yeah, I need to believe that things will work out.
    @Aves: will check your post. I wish you were there tonight. It was just Ren, me, and Jack. We had fun, though.

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  5. I wish I was there too! It sounds like a very good mix. ;-) I keep trying to sleep early, but have been failing miserably at that too lately. Wonder what's wrong...

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  6. Aww Numi, I hope you feel better now. Let's meet this week. Around 7 on Wednesday? I texted you but you didn't reply. I hope you get this.

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